let's be adventurers

How about we go into an airport and buy tickets for a random flight?
Or throw a dart at a map and go wherever the hell it lands.

Perhaps we could live in a pent house in Paris.
And go on a midnight stroll in Champs-Élysées,
and walk in the alley where great artists have walked.
Talk. Walk. Drink wine.
And absorb quietly at "The Louvre."

And how about that road-trip we always talked about.
Drive across Spain like a real Spaniard.
Listen to Catalan guitar.
Attend a masquerade.
Be-friend a complete stranger.
Bade goodbye without exchanging whereabouts.

Let's go to Sydney.
Visit 42-Wallby way asking for Mr. P. Sherman.
The place where they found Nemo.
Because Nemo - I LOVE.

Night at the beach in Maldives.
Send message in a bottle and hope it sails far.
Eat that exotic food.
and drink from a coconut.

Darling, let's be fluent in foreign languages.
Experience zero gravity.
And have a silly sting fight.
How about sailing across the world-
and break a world record.
Learn to tap dance.
Visit Japan.
Visit Jamaica.
Sistine Chapel perhaps.
Hike to Machu Picchu.
Dance in the Rio carnival.
Attend "Kings of Leon" and "30 Seconds to Mars" concert.
And see the "Northern Light" - its like circus in the sky.

Or something simple maybe-
Like write something in a wet cement.
Smash a watermelon and start a melon fight.
Rooftop picnic.
And sleeping under the stars.
Hike the nearest hill-
and stay at the top quietly for hours.
Collect books and build a library one day-
so tall that you need a ladder to reach the top shelf.
Buy prayer flags in all colors.

Re-unite with everyone you love.
hug them tight before saying goodbye.

Love, let's be adventurers.
#BucketList
#WanderLust

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Romancing the Winter.

Winter winds - be kind.

Blow them clouds away.

I need stars to blanket the night sky.

I need them to twinkle,

to entertain me.

I watch the train of traffic in a distance,

each with burning headlights.

- Yellow and Red.

And when I look up there is a silhouette of a bird.

Flying.

Free.

And beautiful (so beautiful).

I think of me,

- My life, as I juggle my eyes between the silhouette, yellow and red.

I wonder when did the minute changes took place from then to now.

How beautiful it (my life) was and how it still is.

Ahhh, thank you life.

Eyes still searching for stars.

Oh Winter! Be kind.

#shyless

(30th October - 2013)

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Such different lives we live.

(turns the radio on)
I fiddle the knob of the radio.
Roam the dial for the distant sounds -
on the short and long wavelengths.
Stretch the antenna,
that towers high above my head.
Strange whispering.
Hiss and Hoosh.
Rising of the ocean.
Falling of a distant tree.
Dit dit and Dot dot.
Monks chanting vespers.
Booming of a Big Ben.
Lovers kissing.
Kingdoms falling.
Children laughing their heart's content.
Woes of mother over her dead child.
Bullets, bombs and missiles.
Stories.
Voices.
Songs.
Plays.
BBC.
Life...

Such different lives we live.
Wish I could live them all.
(turns the radio off)
#shyless

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Love trumps Hate.

"Perhaps you're right, but the fact is that man has used weapons ever since he lived in caves - first to kill animals, then to win power over others. The world has existed without agriculture, without domesticated animals, without religion, without music, but never without weapons." - The Devil and Miss Prym.

     Movies often exaggerate. I understand though. Drama leads to better ratings and that leads to better business. And myannn, do I get emotional (bites my tongue) while watching some of the emotional Paso-Doble onscreen! War movies to be precise, leaves a trial of sadness and moves me to the point where I decide to become a peace warrior (that is until I crave my evening coffee and forget all about my mission). Such is our life. Such is our reality. Okay, moving on.

     Talking about reality, the current state of the world baffles me. News channels have been reduced to mere portals that mostly deliver sad news. But such are the current affairs. I blame none. Yesterday, I stumbled upon 19 minutes long video that showed how war struck Palestinians coped when they were showered with missiles. I stayed silent. And I still fail to transcend into words how it felt while and after I watched it. What if that was me in their place? The thought itself scares me. My heart and spirit reaches out to those who are living there and experiencing what no human soul should ever experience. Yes, it baffles me. Can a human heart be so brutal as to inflict such degree of pain onto others? Or have they evolved to the point that they have become heartless? I wonder and stay clueless.

     I have taught myself to believe that true test of one’s character comes under two particular instances. First when he has the power and second when he has none. Valiant are those who make a right choice under conditions so deplorable that even the higher power will shy away. The video I am so shamelessly discussing featured such silent heroes. Under such adversity, when even God can be questioned righteously, they chose to hold onto their faith. Under the chants of “Allah ho Akbar” they dug under the rubble and unearthed the corpses of many lifeless children. Bleeding mothers making promises to the terrified children that the things will get better, that the better days will come. The weeping girl, child herself, soothing her infant sibling over the dead bodies many of whom she knows. The human emotion was so palpable. The sound of bombs still audible, blood still flowing, external wounds still fresh, internal would that might never heal. Such is their life. Such is their reality. Yes, I saw some silent heroes and I offered them a silent salute. Would I do the same under such conditions? Can I be such a hero? Can I be one of those who holds on to their faith under such unspeakable circumstances or would I simply declare my God dead and falter from my original system of belief? Can I be that parent with the promise of the better world? Can I be that brave child who is now forced to grow up way too early? Can I still be positive under such brutality? And most frightening question of all – Do they still have the future? Everybody deserves happiness and they have been denied theirs so mercilessly.

     I do not write to preach. I do not write to chant hate-slogans or to point out who are wrong. Because, frankly darling, we know it all. I write to help myself to settle my thoughts which would otherwise disturb me. I write because I do not understand. I do not understand why their story is so ignored. Let us not jump to conclusion here, media has its part to play but do we have no responsibility as a citizen of the world. Why did not my school teach me about this which has now been going on for more than two decades but instead taught me about revolutions around the world that took place even before my great grandparents took their first breath? Do we study small-pox or AIDS? Is not AIDS priority since its current and challenging us right now? Similarly is not educating ourselves in Israel-Palestine situation more important than French and Indian revolution? But we have our savior, “Internet” which is a very good teacher but the question is do we have what it takes to be a good student? Shall we at least give a try? May be we are the hero under hibernation. Just maybe!

     Of all, the thing that really baffles me the most is how resilient we are as humans and that no matter how much we claim we do not care but eventually we end up caring. Because - deny as much as you want - we are wired to care, to sympathize and at times to be so inspired that we act upon to bring the change we want to see; that the love for ones we love and care is greater than the tragedy at hand; that the process of repair and hope is our first nature. I guess what I am trying to say is that love trumps hate. Stay inspired.

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Donkeys would have done a better job!

     "The worst illiterate is the political illiterate. He hears nothing, sees nothing, takes no part in political life. He doesn't seem to know that the cost of living, the price of beans, of flour, of rent, of medicines, all depend on political decisions. He even prides himself on his political ignorance, sticks out his chest and says he hates politics. He doesn't know, the imbecile, that from his political non-participation comes the prostitute, the abandoned child, the robber and, worst of all, corrupt officials, the lackeys of exploitative multinational corporations." - Bertolt Brecht.
     Wise words. I hear "I hate politics" a lot. I read "Politics is a dirty game" a lot in self introductory write-up section on Facebook and what not. Display of talent might not make you cool but expressing, "I hate politics" might just do the trick. Am done reading the idiots for whom politics is only "a dirty game" and full stop. I agree, politics is not at all the lucrative job that people look up to especially in our part of the world. And who do we blame? The one playing the game or the ones turning a blind eye to it all?
     One teacher in my school had once told us, "there can be one bad doctor in the system. He might mess up some lives but number is still ignorable but the bad doctor (oh'boy) will go onto destroying the country." And as fate would have it the ones ruling the county right now are donkeys (correction : Donkeys would have done better job at it). They've proven not only incompetent but embarrassing all at the same time. I remember watching this video where this woman says "reproductive" instead of "republic" in an international forum. Had it been a blunder I would have been forgiving but they just sent a wrong person for the job (when we all know that the right ones ate still unemployed and desperate). Auntie'ji, I appreciate your effort but do me a favor and stick to Nepali next time instead of English. You can barely pronounce the name of the country and you are onto representing the country. I highly doubt it.
     I hate it when some politicians open their mouth. They are neither well spoken nor can they charm me with their ideas. If its up to me I'd flush them down the poo hole for good. The news baffles me too. Political news should be about future, about plans, about tomorrow. But not ours. Noway. Its more like a gossip channel. What happened yesterday, who said what and angered whom. Shove it down your back side bitches.
     I like Rajesh Hamal because he is educated re. I understand his well spoken-ness charms you all. But he is an actor for crying out loud. His degrees doesn't make him a good actor. I wonder if they've watched his movies (let alone one movie) to deduce that he's their favorite actor. Its like saying Shailesh is the best architect (if you see me designing some buildings - would love to) when I've been educated to be a doctor. The education must fit its domain. Babu Ram Bhattarai might be educated but is he really? Is he really educated to be a politician (???). The point is there ain't any fit people for the job. At least the one who stands out. 
     Its like all the politicians are in the car (lets say Lamborghini), they know how to drive, road is long and clear, people are cheering for them. But why aren't they driving? They chose to play dumb or worse considers us dumb. Instead of driving they chose to take a nap. Hence, the frustration among people. Can't they see what days and months of protest have led us to. And they did the worst of all things recently. They've started and fuelled the civil violence and possible out break of civil war. We are Nepali first and those jackasses need to come back to their senses or commit suicide. Once one of 'em promised to make Nepal into Switzerland in the matter of few years. Seriously??? Just show me the progress - no matter how small. I don't need Switzerland or the Wonderland. I'd better stop now. I am far off the topic and ventilating my anger out. I make no sense (I know), spare me :)

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I brush my heart everyday!!!

     We eliminate the odour, wash off the hands to get rid of dirt's, dust and vacuum our place, do the dishes, remove the stains, polish our shoes, brush our teeth, mop the floors, shampoo our hair, trim the plants, white-wash the walls, dust the shelves and books, service our cars, get unwanted things off our sight. Exactly, we throw away the unwanted. When I speak of unwanted its mostly to do with the things exterior. But, much greater plague lay in our hands. The kinds that medicine can't cure and the kinds that tears us apart, eats us from inside. Often times, although by no means always, we forget its not the things we need to get rid off. Its the heartbreaks, grudges, regrets, depression, anger, doubts... but we go on with life without trying to fix them. We might look shiny and clean but we become the walking, breathing tragedies.

     When it comes to THINGS - we keep the best ones close to heart and sight; let go of unwanted "tad too easily" in a heartbeat. And that's how it should function. HOLDING ON - either to things or people have never proved beneficial, never proved worthwhile. We should train and teach ourselves to let go of not only the unwanted things but people who pulls us down and frictions the happiness we deserve. Let go of whiners, unkind's, complainers, bullies, heart breakers, motor mouths, gossip mongers, everybody who are pulling us down.
     When we let go of unwanted things, we make more space for wanted. Similarly, letting go of people who who we don't want in life makes more space and time for the ones we want. Let go of things that aren't useful, beautiful and joyful. Make space for wanted. Let go of people who brings the worst in you out. Make space and time for those who helps you to face the sunshine. I am, by no means, suggesting you to be selfish but aware. Aware that our time in earth and present moment is limited. Keep close - to things and people - that will serve you the greatest and highest good.
     And I'm NO expert. I've started applying  this theory recently in my life. I've started making more time for the people I love, like and care. People who make my life meaningful, beautiful and joyful. Make time to write emails, make mini-phone calls, send post cards, buying meaningful gifts (not the 11th hour compensations). Its a process and I intend to hold on it it. Cheerios blog-buds!!! P.S. How often do you brush your Heart?

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How does his happiness affect yours?

"A human being is a part of a whole, called by the Universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest us. Our task must be free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty." - Albert Einstein

     Who thought Albert Einstein could be such deep thinker too!!! If you care enough to scrutinize the cultures and religions of the world - you'll find one basic core to 'em all - LOVE. Each culture and religion promotes love and its various manifestations. Its all about loving your family, your friends, your neighbours, yourself and the God (i.e. if you believe in the concept of God). But then there are countless, needless rules sinking its teeth deep into the religion. So much so, it becomes loving your kinds "absolute necessity" and the other kinds are ignored, often hated. Oh'yes we all should choose the belief system that resonates with our own but in the process we should also make sure the other kinds are respected along the way.


     If they all promote LOVE, I don't know why the confusions are created. The Nazi's picked the kinds they thought were less humans "The Jews", and did the unfathomable thing we all know. Down the line of history, currently, Jew occupied area (Israel) are inflicting the pain upon Palestinians. In Indian sub-continent, Hindu - Muslim clashes are legendary. Its not surprising to see countries hating their neighbouring countries. Neither is it surprising to see many countries - investing more on war than the basic needs of its population. Black's fought against slavery and again for their rights. Gays still struggle for the rights to marry...


     I simply don't understand, how can't we just co-exist. My happiness doesn't effect yours and vice-versa - so why bother to ruffle someone else's feather!!! Diversity is a beautiful thing. Imagine a world with just one color. Sky is blue and beautiful. Forests are green and beautiful. Deserts are brown and beautiful. These montage of colorful and beautiful things create our world. We're no different. The human world is flavored and vivid only because of the presence of diversity. I'm not a saint, nor am I trying to prove a point. I'm just a living breathing individual who contributes to this great world just like anybody else. So bare in mind what Albert Einstein said and widen your horizon. Remove your blinders because world is so much bigger. Below I leave you with the video proving just the point I'm trying to make. After you watch the video question yourself - "How does his happiness affect yours?" Love conquers all.

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YOU ungrateful spoilt rotten brat*

     I don't come from the culture where Thanksgiving is celebrated with enthusiasm (in fact, we don't celebrate it at all); but I love the concept behind it nonetheless. We all have our challenges - early morning classes, foreign language, friends and dramas - but we also have tons of things to be thankful for. Here's few things and peeps am grateful for right about now.



0. I'm thankful for the Facebook "LIKE" button - its the easiest way to pass by without commenting!!! Also for "RE-TWEET / FAVORITE" on Twitter.


1. All YOU guys :: I've come in touch with so many people through this blog - some I've friend-ed. I'm thankful for all those encouraging e-mails. I've saved each of those e-mails and each time I read 'em, I smile - enthused to do better. You know who you are.



2. Super spunky parents who never ask me about my school grades (I'd be in trouble if they do). Not that am suggesting they've poor parenting skills but that they've done their job well and they believe me with absolute certainty.


3. I'm extremely thankful that (one day) my boredom led me to randomly search blogs and YouTube that inspired me to create a blog of my own. I've met most inspiring people over on the Internet.
  
4. Super grateful that I keep meeting right people in my life. 2011 was no exception. If you believe in the concept of god, I can say with billion percent certainty that god love's me. I'm grateful to my friend who stay with me through thick and thin.

o.k. making the list is proving to be hard. am literally gnawing the tip of the pen and thinking... not.

5. I'm grateful for the blessing that always seem to goes unnoticed and that we take for granted, like a beautiful summers morning and the fact that I am have been blessed to be alive and experience. I'm also thankful that my routine permits me to sleep through those mornings. I'm more like a night person, but I like the concept of being the morning person.

6. Thankful for chocolates, booze, cigarettes and ... !!! What would we do without 'em.

7. Facebook, without which I'd be out of touch with my folks. Literally!!!

8. GOOGLE, WIKIPEDIA :: How would I complete my homework otherwise? Google + Wikipedia → Copy → Paste → Change words a little → Print → HOMEWORK FINISHED.

9. For having those people in life who never fail to say that are proud of me and also for those who pinpoint my faults. You need both kinds.

10. And to those who are reading this blog post. I mean writing to myself would be lame otherwise. Thank gosh you're reading it. Now tell me what are you most thankful for in the comments below...

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u just ve one LIFE. keep it simple.

     I haven't been blogging for a while now. There's just too much to write and talk 'bout. I want to write about the crazy nights I have had with my friends, my mini travels and this new book I am reading. All in all, I regret staying away from the blog.

• Lately, I've been out of touch with my blog buddies and I absolutely hate it.
• Lately, I've been partying a lot (my bone hurts).
• Lately, I've been struggling with trust in people who I thought I could count on (just so you know the trust in question is already restored).
• Lately, I've been missing Kathmandu.
• Lately, I've been doing much needed soul searching.
• Lately, winter is saying 'ello and I already miss summer warmth .
• Lately, I've been meeting new people and they inspired me topics to blog 'bout (which I'll do in few days time).

     This (lately) list can go on for ever. On to deeper issues now. Its amazing how our heart feels the strata of emotions. Given a right circumstance and push we all are capable of feeling divergent emotions. Past month I got to experience potpourri of emotions - Love, Hate, Anxiety, Agony, Happiness, Confusion, Doubts. And after all these potpourri of E's I deduce - its totally incapable for us to hold onto one particular emotion.
     I've always known (or convinced myself) that its near impossible to capture and hold onto one particular emotion to eternity. You love someone and sooner or later you fall out of it. You hate someone and soon enough you'll be guilt bound, forgiving. You miss someone and not so far in the future you'll recover (remember : out of sight = out of mind). The sad reality : sometimes people are replaceable. I am, at times, put off by this expletive; but other times pleased by its (life's) novelty. Sometimes we carry our emotions down our sleeves or get carried away. There are times we loose control and emotions take over. We argue, complain. But this necessarily isn't a bad thing. Arguing ventilates the anger within us. Bad is removed so that we can make more space for good. Complaining shows that we care. So whenever in bad situation remember good times ain't far away. Go crazy, banter ballistically, punch the wall, skip meals, throw tantrums but take a deep breath and remind yourself - this feeling shall pass. "Down comes the rain, up comes the sun" and sun always brings warmth and sunshine with it. So look forward to your (possibility) of happy ending.

• Lately, I've been really HAPPY. 
• Lately, I've been getting ample laugh.

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Love vs. Hate

**LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKES MY LIFE COLOURFUL**

the ancient model _ lyrics _ sitting alone in a caffe and reading a book _ trains _vices _ parties _drinking coffee _ having fun & funny people _ enjoying life _rain _ cold weather _dressing up _new year's euphoria _ dynamics _ beauty _longing _ magic of music & movies _ simple food _ idols _ dancing when I am bored _  photography _ dreaming dreaming & more dreaming _ writing _ feeling _ design _ Nepal _ far exotic lands like machu picchu _ retro stuff _ energy _ the past  _60s,70s & 80s _ black side & white side _ noose of the mind _ people _ the categories _ singing _ adrenalin _ one love _ time _ roles endless roles _ theories _ theatre _ equality _ my people , my country, my mentality _ kings of leon _ thunder _ orange _ ephemeral life _ adventures _ contradiction _ candies _ sleeping in the class _ frens _ night-outs _ snow _ hits fm _ long showers _ drum beats _ light _ carnival _ nostalgia _ FREEDOM _ market _ festivals _ dominoes_tabula rasa

**HATE**

rules _ promise _ false morality _ shame _ fear _ not givin' in _ dark _ mindbarriers _ not following will,wishes & heart _ not being open-minded _ not being free _ division _ good-byes _ closed views _ hypocrisy _ blind-faith _ nosy pple _ waiting _ stereo-type

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..all that bickering!!

     FIGHT or FLIGHT. These are two vital/basic human instincts, so much so that these two F's are even included in the medical curriculum. Yes, you might not know whether or not you have it in you but given a circumstance you will either fight or flight, both in accordance with how desperate you are to save yourself. If you've watched the movie 127 hours then you are familiar with the quote so fitfully used "there is no force on earth more powerful than the will to survive." no denying that... but think again... We are humans and hence, we need more than just a survival. We need mundane emotions, needy phone calls, clingy hugs and likes of such desperate show-offs to feel alive. Surviving alone won't suffice. We need to feel wanted, to love and to hate... Oh'well talking about love/hate makes me realize I haven't written about it much lately... So, let's compile the things we hate, shall we? Ahhh, we all know those arseholes, the kinds we call buzz kill. They just know how to kill the perfect happy moment and make it awkward and nasty. Below are some of the things I hate about such people...

• When I am wearing a jacket or sweater inside and someone trying to be funny says “Are ya cold?” (subtitle : f%*@#ing MORON. es, I’m f%*@#ing COLD! f%&#K // actual response : lol. yeah!! am cold. have a good day!!)
• Teachers : They control our clothes, our language, our routine, our learning, our learning place but they have gone too far with our bladder (go wanker, its call piss. it comes uninvited and yes, and no, I can't wait until the bell rings. big boohoo)
• Maths : Chill, I know its important. Fractions and stuffs I get it but why on earth we need to go through bullshits of topics I'll never use in my life. What's calculator for? Ahhh, maths tormented me in school BIGTIME and in some queer way still does.
• I hate it when in school, I write something so good for a contest, but later find out I failed. I mean, I worked my butt off for something I loved and they say it isn’t good. At least say the parts you like!
• It’s weird, icky, and gross. That’s your personal business. Especially on a public site like this. You want the whole world to know who you’re dating? Keep it to yourself.
• People talking in the cinema hall. (seriously, atleast shut up when I stare at you. that's like a sign!!)
• People who brag like they are the center of the world (I don't care even if Queen gave you a blowjob and King cleaned your shit. I don't care if Obama is your first cousin or you were invited to royal wedding as VIP. It's time for you to shut up)
• People making that noise while chewing food. (SCREAM)
• I hate it when I browse through a Nepali page and Google asks me "do u want to translate it into Hindi?" // Google doesn't know everything afterall;)
• People flashing their mobile display while at movies. ("I wish i was a serial killer, I'd so murder you"-->thats how I feel)

     Enough already. Too much teenie weenie twaddle about the things I hate. I have broader list under the title Love vs. Hate. So my blog buds, do tell me what are the things that you find obnoxiously intolerable? What is it that you hate the most?

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