Jumping into the DARK!!!

     If you asked me last year where I saw myself in a year, I would tell you that this wasn’t it. Everything I am right now is nothing like I thought I would have been. The way things are in general are nothing like I thought they would be. I've been meaning to blog. For starters, blogging form the self proclaimed "middle kingdom (China)" isn't exactly an easy job. Its tedious and time consuming. It has blocked the blogging stratosphere and one needs to use proxies and VPN's to filter through. And also my personal life has turned upside down (for good). Relations have been defined and there's just too much happening and too many things to write about. I opted the easy way out by letting the time take its course. And "Cross the bridge when you reach there" theory has been working out just fine with me.
     Going back to the main topic, as I said, I could never have foreseen what was about to happen in my life. Destiny took its course and now I marvel at how life does its best not to cease you off of serendipity's. Few years back I had to let some people go. To see people I couldn’t live without walk away from my life (for the reasons utterly important and undeniable) wasn't an easy thing. But tables turned. I met few of those people just few weeks ago and I realized resilience has taken its toll. I'm deplete of any feeling for them. I don't feel anything. It was like the churned up old thoughts that had settled in the manner of the sediment to the bottom of the pond. And of friendships. To see the true friendships finally be revealed. Seeing time fly by in the blink of an eye and feeling like nothing ever changes. Feeling like everything has stayed the same throughout these days, yet looking back to this exact time last year (or year before that), everything is different.

     And if you multiply the years backwards, you'll see that life has turned out really different from what you had planed out of it. People you wanted to hold onto lost touch eventually. Heart broken and fixed. Lost love and found it again. Still confused in regards to what you want to do with your life. Well these are usual symptoms posing as a common denominator in each one of our lives (part and parcel of being a human). You look into other peoples life as a spectator, stalk their Facebook profiles. You think they've figured out everything. That they are the happiest beings alive. Well get this straight it's the voluntary deception of the top order. People only post happy and pretty pictures. I mean who'll post the fugly pictures of themselves?
     There is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that’s thrown at them. We aren't made that way. In fact, we’re made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. We aren't supposed to be able to handle everything. But that’s what makes us stronger in the end, by learning from the things that hurt us the most. Yes, I was taught to look before I leap, but I was also taught a little something about fun and adventure. Every now and then you just have to dive into a situation head first, without looking too hard. Maybe you’ll crash and burn, or maybe it’ll be the best thing you’ve ever done. My life is nothing like I planned 5 years ago and I deduce that 5 years from now it won't be anything like am planning it be. So, might we all jump in a dark and figure out whatever it is to be figured later? Aren't we all supposed to believe and do what makes sense to us? What makes sense to me might be weird for you. So, be it. We aren't the standardized, processed cookies meant to look, taste and feel the same. Exercise your liberty and stay insanely happy. Hasta luego blog buddies.

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